Foods to CRY for..

Please beware of these flashing images you are about to see. I meant me. 

Actually the list is even longer. But they sink my heart every time I see them, so I will just stick to these 5 culprits - they've been haunting me all along! 4 months now -- and counting.

                                                            Adoi.. gile lah camniii...

                                                                     Ish.. sebak rase..

                                                                     Kejam! Kejam!

                                                                Glorious eh?? Pitam! 

                                                 The most tormenting image (pinsan)

I  just  cannot imagine bulan puasa. We shall wait and see. 

Intann :  I do appreciate photography. I sometimes drooled on them! Haha..

The History-freak! ( I am?? )

What is with me dengan the English history ni? 

I was pestering Mr. Papa - to realize my movie crave - of the latest 'The King Speech' - and so he did. Little that I know - the movie was going to be another history-streak for me. All that matters at the first place was - actually -  Colin Firth *guilty grin*. Turns out that he was playing the role as the King George VI who had some stammer-problem. Okey. Now I can remember the whole listing of Britain's thrones since year 1500 up until now. That is freaky.

                                                   It's all about the king and his speech

                                                       No killer-smile this time, sorry

I will sound bias to say that movie was outrageous-ly good. I like the actor, I'd say all the good things about him. For me (and some other million women who craze over his killer-smile) would just watch whatever movie that stars Colin. Presumably, you've been guessing about my (sincere) opinion if Colin wasn't innit. Well, I'd say the movie is something 'simple' to watch - which will not wreck your mind. You will find no action scenes, no killings (of course!) no weeping, nada. Perhaps you will catch a few chuckles here and there -- and after that, you'd know 'something' about the history.That's all. And, in case you're wondering -- I'd probably tak tengok this movie if its not Colin. Some women huh?? hahahh..

Watch it for yourself, peeps.

Intann : History will be part of your life, Intan .. (bellowing the next word of) -FOREVERRRR!!!

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Issues with the Tissues.

Saturday. Doesn't matter. It's gonna be Saturdays for the next 11 days for me before going back to school -- and get my head to be distressed  again.  Am by my lappy now (with tissue rolls stuck in my nose)-waiting for my two marshmellows to be awake. Ezzah murmured something in her sleep just now, followed by few chuckles. I am pretty much enjoying the moments.

The hingus I'm having (now) is not part of the celebration, okey. I know the right combination of what has caused me this nose-mess. Cold weather (it's -3 throughout the night) + dusty carpets + night sleep on that carpet. Perfect. Part of that would be my fault.. (With Ezzah in the house? The dust simply gets to accumulate 4 times faster!). The whole house is carpeted you see, and we've been sleeping in the living room for quite sometimes now, just to have the TV as the chief reason. 

Half of the tissue roll - well used, but the runny-hidung still doesn't show tanda-tanda nak berenti. Ini pun boleh bikin stress lah. Dah lah the price (the tissue rolls) mahal nak mampus kat sini.  Average price for 8 rolls of tissues can come close to 5 pounds! Hmm.. what a price for disposing some hingus huh? Don't ask about the one that come in boxes. Tak berani nak jeling pon. Haha.

Have been by my lappy for about 4 hours now, but I still can't figure out what to cook today! You can pretty much say 'padan muka' to me sebab tak pandai masak. I had a dream about something that goes on for sooo longggg...but all I have in my mind is the hot ayam masak lemak cili padi in some canteen - of somewhere - some place - with people I don't remember! Goodness! That is all I remember??The ayam??

Better work out something, Intan. You are so close to pathethic-ish!

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Some history for bedtime stories, anyone?

Okey. Old,old England History - toured within 2 hours. Dah habes tengok 'The Other Boleyn Girl' - with Natalie Portman ngan Scarlet Johansson as stars. Memang a bit terpengaruh ngan homework. I was writing about Hampton Court Palace and its historic evolution, came across cerita pasal King Henry VIII's wives (which most of them committed adultery) - then kena beheaded. Gilalah. Pancung straight! But it was a good movie. Not to say 'sangat best' but good enough to learn 'bout the history. Come on, letak Natalie Portman tuu.. and some hunks in the-16th centuries-English-attire! (George Boleyn, their brother, for instance) Hehe. King Henry VIII was played by Eric Bana.

Natalie played Ánne Boleyn - depicted 'the most influential queen in history of England' - all because of her capability to make the king annuled his marriage - and became the queen. Came across Thomas Wolsey in the movie - the king's favourite minister who built the palace as his house, but then kena balas ngan king (he's one of the main figure in my essay though, but the palace-landscape stuff takde ye dalam movie ni). Back to cerita Anne Boleyn - she was so overly-confident that she can bear the king a son (heir); which at the end, she failed. She gave birth to a baby girl (Queen Elizabeth I), got pregnant again - but then suffered miscarriages. Sickly and desperately, had asked for George Boleyn (his brother!) favour to get her pregnant again. But he couldn't. Well that was what delivered in the movie. Both Anne and George were beheaded. Sian George! hahahah..

                                                          Anne and Mary

                                                                 Anne and George (see!) 

                                                              Eric Bana played the king 

The palace was definitely not the Hampton Court Palace. Lacock Abbey was one of the place where they filmed the movie. And we've been there! How come we didn't know??

Hmm. Wonder why they didn't make history as fascinating as these before..? I mean, masa time sekolah2 dulu. I can remember names now, can you believe it!?

Intann : Beheaded scenes? Of course I was not looking -nightmares nanti. Hehehe.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Let's just chill, snug and tuck!

Bummer.... it's raining!

Who'da thunk! (Uuhh, finally got the chance to use these..American konon!).  Papa, Ezzah and I have been chillin' inside today (actually, most of the days, for months!) sleeping, catching up on our movies and..stuff. Hehe. More like some bunch of "The Çhillers" don't you think?? The truth is, we've been having a longgg night sailing, you see. We sleep at around 2 or 3 in the morning, which obviously will make us miss our breakfasts.  And in no time, the sun sets again (which now at 4pm). Gelap. Anytime that we bumped into any of or neighbours (normally during buang-sampah day) - the same questions pop-out : "Ooouuhh.. Where have you guys beeeennnnn..??? or.."It's beennn ages since we last met you, were you guys travelling or something..??". O yeah. We've been hibernating. Big time. Haha.. I wish I just answer them - "Sejuk la weh outside". And "We don't have a dog to walk" rather than the long explaination of the stressful keja sekolah that had caused me the lock-up days.  Hahaha. But they are still - great neighbours. Lucky us.

We had planned on going for a run (please read: planned, its kind of a dream, okey!) but it looks pretty chilly outside, (yearghh, perfect, another alasan) so instead we just had few jumps and dances out from the Micheal Jackson's pieces in the Wii, followed by tonnes (and tonnes!) of Walkers salty chips. If any of the neighbours knows what we actually do inside, they'll faint - one, because of the excessive chips exposure to the little kiddo, second - for having to witness some huge fats going ups and downs. (That is why the law doesn't allow peeping, people..!)

But we're definitely going for a little walk or just the hop in the nearby co-op (hey, I haven't got my celebration cake, okey?) - get some fresh air inside us.

                         Tekan-tekan this thing only to read the 'Please call to subscribe bla..bla..bla..'

                                                     The next best thing after waking up from a longgggg sleep..

                                                             There goes the face : event well describe??

Other than that, we're staying tucked up inside, nice and warm! É endata bene (That was good).

Intann : And for the record, am all recovered from those frizzy-feelings I had the other night. Still, I don't know what it is - but I'm glad they're gone. Nothing feels better than a peaceful mind and soul. You bet.

xx   DreamSnugger  xx

Rasa tak sedap hati...

Not long after my last stupid-posting, I was engulfed with some unknown-anxiety-feelings, and it was choking me and my entire body. I tried to divert my mind from thinking 'bout it -- I made late-dinner, I washed all the dishes in the kitchen (O-ýes, even me myself - wondered where those lazy-ass-ness I had earlier been) -- I even played the Wii - racing, dancing and all - but the strange feelings get stronger and stronger. I couldn't help it and told Mr. Papa. He suggested me to call my parents at home.

So, I did. It was good to hear my mum's voice. She sounds - well and delighted. That was indeed a relief. I felt like crying. And I tried to breathe. It was a brief chat, though. She was rushing - for her agama class kat surau. That went well, I suppose.

Hmm.. What was that..? I remember having this weird-over-anxious-feeling way long ago - during my teenage days. I was so scared, I thought I was dying. I would climb up my parents bed and repeatedly asked for forgiveness, and slept at their feet. Weird, I know..*sigh*

I am so scared.. : (
And am not kidding..


xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Happy-mess day of my life *wink*

My thought is doing the questioning, and me - answering.

What day is today?  Wednesday. 

Weather condition ?  Rainy. 

Cold? Bloody cold..!! You know it!

Malas level? 10/10. 

What did you have for breakfast?  Nada. Nothing. I sleep.

Sebab malas? Yes. 

Lunch? Hmm.. Last night's nasik minyak. 

Huu.. nice. Dinner? Hu.. kimchi noodles. 

Sebab malas again? Yeepppiie!

Tak lapar ke..? Err... Nope.

Hmm..

Ehh? Dah malam dah? (Yeahh..yeahhh..for someone who just woke up..!)

What's interesting tonight? Hmm.. Nada..Nothing. *Snort*

Even TV? Ah-hah..Boringgg.. Same old craps.

So..this is your idea of "celebration"..?? (Ha ha.. not funny...! )

What are you going to dooo..?? I don't know!!
Malas level still 10?? Yezza! A solid score. 10 flat!

Is that it..?? Ughhh..Yesss...There goes my first day..

Anything else..?? O yes. Got 1 more question. 

How you describe today? Err.. Ultimate lazy-ass day of the year?? Can?

Whatever makes you happy, woman!

Well..Not so bad huh..? Pretty much nothing. Perfect..! 

Intann : Hehe..

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

They lift me up - everytime!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pLvUTLKTHQ

All I Ask of You - by Sarah Bridgeman & Josh Groban

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you - my words will warm and calm you.

Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry your tears.
I'm here with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you...

Say you love me every waking moment,
turn my head with talk of summertime...
Say you need me with you now and always...
Promise me that all you say is true -
that's all I ask of you...

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you -
your fears are far behind you...

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night...
and you, always beside me,
to hold me and to hide me...

Then say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
let me lead you from your solitude....
Say you need me with you here, beside you...
anywhere you go, let me go too -
That's all I ask of you...

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime...
say the word and I will follow you...

Share each day with me,
each night, each morning...

Say you love me...
You know I do...

Love me - that's all I ask of you...
Anywhere you go let me go too...
Love me - that's all I ask of you...

Intan : In total-jiwang mood right now.. It's just.. too good to be true, kan?

 xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Finally - the Ófficial School Break - for Me!

Ahhh.. am so going to enjoy this great feeling of I-had-my-homework-done- the best way ever! Oh what a joy! I feel like laughing and dancing and yawning and singing and screaming - and the whole lot more - all at once..!!

Feels so good! Feels so good! Feels so good!! 

(Please do not have the images of the frantic dance - and please do heed to these warnings)

Okey. Intan. Breathe...What should I do next?? I (really really really) need to celebrate it with something. Something I've been yearning for sooooooooo longgg. A Creamy Choco Cake..? Huu..nice, but NO! Hmm.. What about the free-entry visit to the Roman Bath? Or Prior Park? Been here for months, but still haven't got the chance to sneak in. Huhu..Nice. Akan dipertimbangkan. Maybe we'll go with Irda when she's here in April. Lagi.. ?? Options..options.. haaa.. I know.. I know - Josh Groban.. : ) It's always gonna be him..So soothing and free... The best treat ever! 

Ahh.. can still remember listening to him singing Alla Luce del Sole in my old Wira - on my way to the uni  - and told myself; I'm gonna be there. 

So, here I am. Living my dream. : )

 Intan : Keep dreaming people, its happening.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

"I say..go to sleep -- now!"

The essay was progressing well yesterday. Conclusion drafted, bibliography and front cover ready, tapiii.. am not so sure about the conclusion. I dare not say its over yet - sebab when I read through the end part of it, ishh.. rasa macam pelik aje. Huhu..No no no.. I have to do something about the conclusion.More readings perhaps. 

I went to sleep at 3a.m - and so did Ezzah. She - becoming a late-nite-snoozer now has been a dilemma for me, you see. Her interests for TV and toys dah kurang, all she asks every morning is the Wii Mario and other gaming stuff- which is soooooo-not-in-my-parenting-list! And that was what she's been doing all night. I tried to divert her away from it by giving her the book and colour pencils - but then she will come and sit on my lap - asking me to do the activity with her. Adoi.. Not that I don't want to, but I have some other depressing task I have to complete - which right now, I kind of -- err..running out of time! To my dismay, my other half, instead of helping - he'd rather give Ezzah to play the games! I am so frustrated. I do. I'm not saying that I'm such a good parent, really. I know, I have my flaws too..but I really don't want her to get addicted to it. Like her Papa. The thing is like an addiction to cigarette, even worst bila the addict will never admit they are one. Keep saying its for fun. If so, when you're supposed to stop, stop lah.. Get to the priorities.. Ye tak..?

Last night I had to force her to stop playing (it's 3 in the morning - and you're only 4 - for goodness sake!) She cried so loud I had to warn her that I'd lock her somewhere else. Not even 5 minutes of crying, tido dah pun. 

I admit, part of it is my fault. I have to lock myself at home, of work and money - and so did them. After I finish all this, I will bring her to the park - let her play - get all sweaty and tired - then I shall re-align her sleeping time.

She deserves to see the world outside. She will understand. I know she will. She's my baby.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Loosing Control!

I can't remember when was the last time I caught myself feeling soooo angry towards someone. Got a message from a close friend; confided about how she was treated at her work place. Some jerk came up and tried to show off the bossy skill so inappropriately - they are not even a boss! Huh.. Whatever happened inside the mind. I was so furiuos - and have to put myself back together sebab my whole body was shaking - out of rage. Oh, what a monster. I am not exaggerating, guys - the fact that I know that jerk so well.

Trying to comfort her, (kononnye lah) - I replied my friends message, but my words were spaced by thousands of exclaimation marks! haha.. I was the one ended up got carried away with emotions. I feel sorry for my friend. And also to that jerky-monster. I just cannot comprehend - the arrogance. I mean, they were nothing! Takkan lah sebab ada the stupid pangkat keja (yang tak seberapa tu) makes them think they deserve to make other people's life miserable?? No, I can never understand. Come on.. where are your senses?? Go back to earth and look around, jerk. (Huh..that was me cursing??) Not good. Another monster. *sigh*

Sheeshh. Guess I have to breathe easy. I gotta say - am suffocating right here. Mr.Khor was right, anger does poison you soul.

Let them go.


xx   DreamSnugger   xx

Morning with the essay.. (or mourning..?)

Today started at 9 am. That's not quite early for me. I usually contemplate the snooze button at 6.45 (tapi rasanya dah lama tak bangun that early). Anyway, no point reminiscing, about waking up or the hours spent trying to keep myself busy - hoping to chase away the guilts of keje yang tak siap-siap nih.

Outside my window shows a thin layer of frost on the lawn. Patutlah there were chills the moment I woke up just now. Peeking at the weather --> shows the temp dropped to -1c.. hmm.. signs of snowing again..? Tapi, for all I know, if it's snowing again, I just know now what to do. Snow means - stay in the house if you got nothing better to do. (Ughh..right now, I just wanna slid in under the duvet! The cosy, warmest place ever! Hahaha..)

What's the better thing to do..? Keje ni laa.. Turns out the essay I'm writing leads me to a whole new perspective and knowledge (of course). I'm writing about Hampton Court Palace stuffs and the history was a great fun! There were stories of the kings, the stuffs they do, the wifes who cheated on them and got beheaded (great story), the ups and downs of a monarchy, and many more. Who knows all of the sudden, am now a history person. Hahaha..lame.

I'm glad the stories behind the stuffs I'm writing happen to turn me on (to do the work, okey!). I feel a bit more relaxed when I understand the story lines, and hope to get the report done early. Thanks to Melanie, who never gives up explaining, and explaining (and explaining.. again) about the flow of the report to me. You should be the course director Mel! Haha..

Enough babbling I guess. Time for cereals!

xx   DreamSnugger  xx

Mr. Papa's Birthday 2011

We had a blast birthday bash for him last night - at midnight - with cards, kisses, cup-cakes and candles!  The fact that its just the 3 of us - celebrating it in our own small house -  makes it even more lovelier. I still couldn't afford to buy him anything yet, but I will, someday.

Ezzah was the happiest one semalam.She has been singing, in fact dah boleh hafal - the birthday song in the BBC cbeebies for quite some times now. Knowing the last 3 years of her birthdays - she would ran away from the candles. From the show, I guess she's big enough to know that birthdays are supposed to be fun! When I showed up with the cake and candles last night, she frozed. Terbeliak bijik mata member. Ahaha..Funny, because less than a minute after that, she went frenzied with the birthday song and candles!

 Oh, what a night.. Papa, I wish you great health and happiness. I love you.


xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Gimme-A-Break!

My 4th report completed, printed and away from my sight. *sigh*. I am allowing myself to have a day or two to sanitize my mind. Oh yes, it is that bad. Then, I shall keep myself strangled all over again.

These past two days has been filled with silence -- and movies - and for the record, I cried in every endings of them. Well, part of myself memang sentimental, tapi the things that they put up in the plots - I believe could happen to anyone of us. Like the Pixar's UP for instance; seeing the old man moments with his wife since they were little kids, grew up and got married, sharing things and dreams together, as if we can feel the love that they were having. And the end -  looking at him flipping through his late wife adventure-album - simply burst me into tears. Its just that; I saw myself to be a lot alike the late wife - full of dreams and ambitious journey-written from a very young age.. of places she wanted to be, of French language ( I bet its in every girls dream)..Oh God.. I envied the makcik..even she was just a cartoon..

I giggled when I heard the talking candle-in the classic Disney's Beauty & the Beast - said about 'how to woo and win a girl's heart' - while courting; to his master -- the Beast. Its charmingly sweet because it is true! 1. Chocolates. 2. Flowers. 3. Gentle-ness. 4. Tell them promises you don't intend to keep. Hmm..That was a good one. Haha..

The Killers starring Ashton Kutcher and Catherine Heigl - was quite fun. Even the ending was not as thrill as I expected; the lines struck me like a running thunder. The part that the husband (Kutcher) was screaming about how he hates the wife to be so clingy to the parents - was really something. Ouch.That really hurts. I will never blame them for having that sort of grudges - even if I'm a man, I would be whining about the same thing. Easy. Blame the women, kan? It's okey. We are quite used to it. So, I guess, all Mr. Man should live their life with principles aren't they..? Think like a man. I'm telling you, normal women just need their attention and security. Attention includes love. Security involves visions of the future. That is all. The rest, you ask yourself. You're the man.

Next movie? The Devils Wear Prada. Nice. But it reminds me of work. Euwww. Don't need that right now.Passed.

Midnight? Indespicable Me. Yes the one with 3 girls and some weird yellow things. Whatever they are. This movie made me laugh and cry at the same time! I love the girls. The 3-kitten-bedtime-story made me cry. The unicorn 'he's-so-fluffy-I-could-die' had me laughed my stomach out.. so cute..

Enough babbling, Intan. Cerita pasal muvi nih memang tak habes-habes..


xx   DreamSnugger   xx

The Cake and I

Okey. I need the time to fly fast - so I can see the balance in my account is full again. But, somehow, I need the time to stand still, sebab - I just have like 13 days to complete my 5th report.. Ughh.. Mana satu ni...??
Adoii.. I need some cake..!

Kalau kat KL - right now - I will definitely be indulging myself ngan those Butterscotch slices. Perghh. That was some cruel images - just hit my mind! It's okey..just 9 months to go. But then, the same lame - work- routine will trap my entire life again. Hmm.. tak best jugak kan..? I better embrace everything I have now. Be it without my favourite cake, but its peaceful here.

Okey. Better start working now - you don't want to stress yourself out on the 25th, kan??
(cake...cake..cake....!)


xx   DreamSnugger   xx

Kepala Jammed!

Okey. I've completed the survey part. This is my fourth report, but when it comes to writing analysis and discussions, memang stuck! Ish..takkan sebab tak makan kot.. 

What to write..what to write.. sah merepek satgi nih. 

Meanwhile, sambil-sambil cari idea, my mind wandered - and glimpses of the future suddenly popped out. About some Korean food I've been missing, about things I'd do every Fridays in KL (Makan@Sogo of course), and..uh oh.. Syima, my sis will be here in April. That is such a great fun. Irda too. Oh, gheee.. we shall track our Darcys in Stourhead garden very soon.. Nyeh nyeh nyehh.. haha.. *drooling again* Good thing I have my Survey report done about the garden. I have everything about the history and stuff - stuffed in my brain now. O yeah, all except the analysis - yet. *sigh*

Aduuu.. tolong lahh..apa nak tulis niii.. 

Masak nasik dulu lah.

xx   DreamSnugger  xx

The Mega Slumber

Bummer. I went to sleep at about 1am last night, only to find myself getting up - now. It was like 10-11 hours of slumber. Mak aih.. itu tido ke apa tu. I was so determined to siapkan my 4th 'ass-signment' by tomorrow, so that I can start the 5th - but upon waking up -everyday - up until today - I feel like a load of craps. There's another 1000 words to go, tapi rasa macam jauh lagi aje. Nak muntahhhh!

Worst still, apa nak tulis untuk extended essay tu ha..?

Sian Papa ngan Ezzah. We wake up everyday to find ourselves the cereals for breakfasts. Yep. Almost everyday. I couldn't leave my keja you see.. I hope they'll understand.. I will make it up to them nanti. I will..

And yet, people still think I am here enjoying myself. *sigh*


xx   DreamSnugger   xx

Bump-y-ride!

When other people were enjoying sledging down the snowy hill in winter, I nastily fell down my 13-steps staircase the other day - slipped from the top right to the bottom - and it was a non stop flight. Good thing the stairs are fully carpeted, and, thanks to those big bumps I have all these years. Nonetheless, still, the pain was excruciating - I cried like a budak kecik down the stairs. 

It's been a week now, but the pain on my thighs and hands is still there. I remember having some painful left-thigh cramps back in September, and they just dissapeared after about 2 months. I had to swallow those creepy panadols almost every day, and can barely walk during my first few days in Bath. Whatever the pain was, I hope they won't come back.

So, how should I deal with this thing??

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Mr. Winter, breezy week, please..

Sneaked through the weather forecast of this week for Bath, and the figures lift me up a bit. We shall be having a breezy temp all along this week, around 9 to 11 Celcius; even though some of the days shall be raining or cloudy. Well, that will do. The last time we were out was like 3 days ago when we decided to warm the car - and we ended up in Tesco, a mile away from home and had ourselves some bananas. Pathetic, kan? But then, think its okey - sebab I was picturing winter shall forever look white. Maybe in some other places, but having this weather - in winter, is fine with me. A brief moment with the snow last December - was literally enough. Haha.. Having bitten bitterly on the nose and toes - made me locked up in the house almost all of the time. Ughhh.. sakit nose..

Next week, they say that the temp shall drop again - rounding to 3 celcius average - all week. Am amazed to see how my little spidey-gal was hanging on. She seems to have no problem with the weather at all! Now that the weather is pleasing, I should be more concerned about the bills. They apparently freezed me!

Speaking of freezing, when are they going to fix my kitchen's radiator??! Sejuk lah..

xx   DreamSnugger   xx

A-rolla-costa dream!

After going through a rough and distressing day, there was me in my weird-dream-coaster. Again. But this time they were totally absurd. Only very few pieces of the dream  I can still recall, but I want to keep this. It's quite perky, you see.

I was in KL, and after some time, I went to an old building or something, carrying a half-bod mannequin (of myself!) and that smooch cocoa-butter thing was supposed to be a surprise present for a m-friend! Goodness..  who am I kidding?? I remember being all excited about it. Crazy!. So, went on, into the building, and got into an elevator-so huge - it was a size of a room. Then, I pressed the button to get to the 16th floor. Okey. Freaky. I remember that too?  Suddenly, the elevator was all glass, and as we were approaching 16th floor, I saw friends from my office - standing outside. Swell! Not these people! I was panicked, inside out. They shouldn't see me and my mannequin thing together like that! That was all private, people! Haha.. I managed to shoo a few people away from the elevator. But then, came my ex-boss - and he wanted to have a lil chat pulak with me. Luckily, I didn't pee in my pants. That dream made me feel so embarassed, even its not real. So, I figured that I was being polite with the boss, had the chat he insisted, but with a stretch of fake smiles and giggles. Hahaha..He even  went peeping inside wanting to see what was behind me.. Darn! And where the hell was the present owner??

The next thing was not supposed to be published. Not that there were flashing, but I can't remember them anymore. *giggle*What? What were you thinking?? But I think, there were lollipops involved. Hahaha..

Bottom line? Finish your work, Intann!

xx   DreamSnugger   xx

Stuck On You

Stuck on you
I've got this feeling down
Deep in my soul
That I just can't lose
Guess, I'm on my way
 

Needed a friend
And the way I feel now I guess
I'll be with you till the end
Guess I'm on my way
Mighty glad you stayed

I'm stuck on you
Been a fool too long I guess
It's time for me to come on home
Guess I'm on my way
 

So hard to see
That a woman like you could wait
Around for a man like me
Guess I'm on my way
Mighty glad you stayed
 

Oh, I'm leaving on that midnight train
And I know just where I'm going
I've packed up my troubles
And I've thrown them all away
Because this time little darlin'
I'm coming home to stay

~ Lionel Ritchie ~

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

I Dream of Nasik Lemak

Weird dream I had last night. Me and another friend, (but I don't remember who) were some kind of 'kidnapped' - like cats - in a box - and brought us to a small community centre. The place was crowded with people, and we were warmly welcomed in the 'new neighbourhood'. Funny, coz they even brought us nasik lemak and stuff, like they knew we wouldn't have any food for the rest of the time.

But then, some medical staff came - and tried to make us stay in the place, or perhaps çlinic' and we were confused of how hard they were trying to make us (or I better say - to prove us) insane. And then, (this was the best part) - I was rescued by some  special agents and we went through some drama in order to get us out. That involved fighting the whole neighbourhood, crawling under fire and weapon attacks. We survived the battle, but the clinic went on doing the research stuff and started to clone people. I even saw ém killing the clones they created. 

Okey. What was the TV program I was watching last night ni..?? Let me see.. Rasanya tengok iTV Idiot Awards semalam. Nape kluar mimpi cerita perang2 nih? but..nasik lemaks..?? That was the best part!

Back to work, Intan. Main jer..

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Chasing the sun

The last time I was kept away from the sun - is like 4 years ago when I was hospitalized for about a month. But, today, seeing and feeling the beams from the sun, excites every nerves I have, and I never knew how much I've been missing it. Now I know that - when people say 'do cherish every single thing you have in life before they're gone' does really mean something. It does feel so good - after about a month looking at the pale and gloomy sky, I stand still by my window just to enjoy the sunshines. No more foggy morning, all I can see is the wonderful view of Bath city so vividly from here. Stupid, I know. And I know I will be missing this cold weather next year - back home when there's only sun that's available. But, you see, when there's sun, there'll be a cendol stall right under it, and maybe some lepat pisang..or ais kacang with ice cream..*drooling* Okey. There it goes-food halucinations. I better stop -- before I see some ikan bakar falling from the sky.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Drowned

Days passed and my 2 reports are (still) not going anywhere. The wish of not stressing myself out of doing these tasks has came to mock me back right to the face. Lame excuses - like 'need the moods'and stuffs will later suffocate me, I know, and there's no one else to help me beside myself. Worst still, I haven't got the title for my 2nd report!

I have been having sad dreams for quite sometimes now,  of my best friends-hating me -- and each time has caused me a severe heart-wreck. I certainly don't need that right now. God knows, I have been drowned to the bottom lately, and with these sad-surreal dreams keep coming and haunting me every night, they will keep me in pain for like a year. I miss my friends : (

Urghhhhh..! Every single thing that cross my mind now -- will end me up with  stress. I feel like screaming.

I am a complete wreck...*frown* : (

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Holding back the years

 

Simply Red ~5th January 2011

Holding back the years
Thinking of the fear I've had so long
When somebody hears
Listen to the fear that's gone
Strangled by the wishes of pater
Hoping for the arms of mater
Get to me the sooner or later

Holding back the years
Chance for me to escape from all I've known
Holding back the tears
Cause nothing here has grown
I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all those years
And nothing had the chance to be good
Nothing ever could yeah

I'll keep holding on
So tight

Well I've wasted all my tears
Wasted all of those years
And nothing had the chance to be good
Cause nothing ever could

I'll keep holding on
Holding, holding, holding

That's all I have today
It's all I have to say

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Life Goes On..

It’s been 5 days now of 2011. Resolutions? Hell NO. So much of resolutions here and there; but none’s coming out from this brain of mine. There are more important matters lining up in my life now – that’s in dire need of solution, but I don’t have any damn ideas!

I have another 20++ days to complete 2 essays, the car’s road tax needs renewal and there’s a siren wailing from inside my bank account. Until my next allowance, we shall live with our existing food-stocks. Hah. Good thing that I’m not a good cook – and, there’s a substantial amount of food we can save out of being lazy, you know.

And as for now, living abroad has been a broken fairy tales. I, somehow, deserve a huge blame – for not heeding advices – poured to me before coming here. Bath in particular, despite being a modest-size historic city, it shocks me (and chokes me) well with its extreme-high-cost-of-living. But, hell, the city is indeed worth a view.

Watched Simply Red – (the last one?) mini concert on the iTV just now. It was breathtaking! Another drift to the past – the songs reminded me of my good-school-days you know. I love the feelings. Why can’t we just let the time to stay still? Crazy I know. But I want it.

So..was it a good sign for my entire 2011?

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

2011 Fever!

I had quite an emotional New Year’s Eve back then. While waiting for the fireworks n stuff, (and failed to grab hubby’s attention); I resorted myself to a good reminiscence of my youth -- watching 2 great concerts on the TV; of Lionel Ritchie and Sir Cliff Richard. My favourite tunes came one after another. I was so into mood, spirited up, and sang along – in my whacky out-of-tune loud voice. I just didn’t care! I went to sleep – smiling alone. What a night! No, it was a FEVER! Ahahahah..

By the way, the fireworks display was grand and amazing! There were even some flying lanterns around the neighbourhood. Fancied ém - a lot.

Well, the next day wasn’t that ‘feverish’ I would say. Hoping to mark 1.1.11 a well-remembered family get-together in Cardiff, but it just went ‘OK’. Maybe I was (wayyy) too eager to make the trip worked, I put up the expectation so high, and ended up frustrated when they didn’t seem to appreciate it. I didn’t set the hope that much though, perhaps only some happy kisses and Í love you’s, but all I got was – a heartbreak. It hurt me – deep, but again, being me, I simply swallowed things within myself – hoping things will turn out OK again. What is wrong with me??

But, that will not stop me from another day-dream, kan? 

xx DreamSnugger xx