Cuti dah nak habes..??

Diversion. Diversion.

Exactly 1 week to 2nd semester. Rasa macam kecik-kecik dulu dok kira hari - tanak pi sekolah. Sugarbunchs are still asleep. Ezzah malam2 before she sleeps, dok mintak benda bukan-bukan. If she sees the ads or cartoons on TV-showing something, mulalah dia pun merepeks.

Been browsing notes for the next term just now- I'd say : tougher it seems for the first glance. Hope jangan la banyak sangat-sangat courseworks like last term. Mengong sekejap rasanya. I just can't imagine those who are doing part-time - with works and stuff. Erghh.. nak muntah! 

What to do next??

Arranging + compiling moodle notes from last term - boleh tahan banyak. Checked. Nak print? No way. My ink cartrigde can only accomodate approx. 200 pages - which equal to 3-4 reports. Will leave it in softcopy mode forever I guess. Have to be picky - sebab each time of ink refill will cost me 30 pounds! Simpan untuk reports saje lah ye. Itu belum price for binding.

Isk..Lapar lah pulaks..

Tomorrow, sampah day. Sabtu, no plan. Sunday : looking forward nak pegi Hefni's place for CNY celebration. Hmm..looks like party tu will be dominated by the same bunch of Malays. Chinese friends mostly have their own plans and wouldn't be in town that day. So, akan jadi some sort of jamuan raya melayu la nanti. Worst still, me takde clue nak masak ape nak bawak ke sana. Harry dah chop nak bawak sandwich. Kasi can lah dia buat yang simple sebab he's still mrs-less. Dok selongkar resipi senang-senang la kat intenet nih - hoping for a light that helps!

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Get over it, and I mean - now..

The last 3 days had been filled with tears. Really, I don't think you want to see what's inside my head. I've never felt more screwed up...or I guess I should say - uncertain. Everything in my life right now is uncertain. Everything. I am - I'm the type of girl who cry a lot....but I've cried more the past few days than I have in the past two years. Anything (and I mean ANYTHING) will set me off. I take a shower....I cry. I watch TV....I cry. I sit here blogging....I cry. Definitely not a lie...very stressed.

I am learning a lot about myself lately. I keep myself busy doing house-stuff and cooking (masak tipu-tipu). Because if I am busy, I don't have time to think about all of the uncertainties. Oh, there's that word again....uncertainties. Right now, we have about 4 major decisions based on ONE THING. And of course that ONE THING is up in the air. You know I would give details if I could. But I can't. So....we wait. And until this ONE THING is answered, we have a lot of uncertainties. Until this ONE THING is answered....I cry. I cry a lot.

But Mr. Papa and Ezzah have been unbelievably supportive. I think, in our 5-years of marriage and after we moved to Bath, this is the first time that we really communicate. I can speak my heart and all my miseries to him, and he delivered his thoughts too. He does understand. And of course, I, too, understand that - we have been under some 'remote-control-circumstances' (of which - not me) before this; the 'ín-laws' who were determined to shape our life (every aspects, okey) based on their ideal life. I was not capable of realizing that at the first place; and I admit - that was the chief reason why Mr. Papa lips was zipped tight. So, now that I know - I shall remind myself to think sensibly and try to be in his shoes pulak.

Just when I thought I had absolutely no more energy to add anything else to my lifestyle...that all changes. I need to move on. As much as it hurts me to say this, I already feel so much stronger. Maybe (but don't hold your breath), I just might show you how recovered and positive I am when this is all over (but seriously, don't hold me to it!). But, we shall keep ourselves refrigerated, still. That won't change until summer comes.

Yes, life hurts sometimes. That's nature I guess. 

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Drowned again..

I was just about to post some story about Pires on Sunday; of how he made my day by showing up on the TV scoring his first goal for Aston Villa - when all of the sudden, without any spesific reason, I decided to call home. And that call has crushed me into pieces. All the questions thrown by Mom - put me in complete silence. I was enormously devastated, and angry - of myself. I will not blame anyone else; for it is all my mistakes. 

Happiness turns into misery in split seconds. I still bear the pain, for it will not go away - until its all over. All I need is a second chance.

I have learnt my lessons. I am a new person now.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Foods to CRY for..

Please beware of these flashing images you are about to see. I meant me. 

Actually the list is even longer. But they sink my heart every time I see them, so I will just stick to these 5 culprits - they've been haunting me all along! 4 months now -- and counting.

                                                            Adoi.. gile lah camniii...

                                                                     Ish.. sebak rase..

                                                                     Kejam! Kejam!

                                                                Glorious eh?? Pitam! 

                                                 The most tormenting image (pinsan)

I  just  cannot imagine bulan puasa. We shall wait and see. 

Intann :  I do appreciate photography. I sometimes drooled on them! Haha..

The History-freak! ( I am?? )

What is with me dengan the English history ni? 

I was pestering Mr. Papa - to realize my movie crave - of the latest 'The King Speech' - and so he did. Little that I know - the movie was going to be another history-streak for me. All that matters at the first place was - actually -  Colin Firth *guilty grin*. Turns out that he was playing the role as the King George VI who had some stammer-problem. Okey. Now I can remember the whole listing of Britain's thrones since year 1500 up until now. That is freaky.

                                                   It's all about the king and his speech

                                                       No killer-smile this time, sorry

I will sound bias to say that movie was outrageous-ly good. I like the actor, I'd say all the good things about him. For me (and some other million women who craze over his killer-smile) would just watch whatever movie that stars Colin. Presumably, you've been guessing about my (sincere) opinion if Colin wasn't innit. Well, I'd say the movie is something 'simple' to watch - which will not wreck your mind. You will find no action scenes, no killings (of course!) no weeping, nada. Perhaps you will catch a few chuckles here and there -- and after that, you'd know 'something' about the history.That's all. And, in case you're wondering -- I'd probably tak tengok this movie if its not Colin. Some women huh?? hahahh..

Watch it for yourself, peeps.

Intann : History will be part of your life, Intan .. (bellowing the next word of) -FOREVERRRR!!!

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Issues with the Tissues.

Saturday. Doesn't matter. It's gonna be Saturdays for the next 11 days for me before going back to school -- and get my head to be distressed  again.  Am by my lappy now (with tissue rolls stuck in my nose)-waiting for my two marshmellows to be awake. Ezzah murmured something in her sleep just now, followed by few chuckles. I am pretty much enjoying the moments.

The hingus I'm having (now) is not part of the celebration, okey. I know the right combination of what has caused me this nose-mess. Cold weather (it's -3 throughout the night) + dusty carpets + night sleep on that carpet. Perfect. Part of that would be my fault.. (With Ezzah in the house? The dust simply gets to accumulate 4 times faster!). The whole house is carpeted you see, and we've been sleeping in the living room for quite sometimes now, just to have the TV as the chief reason. 

Half of the tissue roll - well used, but the runny-hidung still doesn't show tanda-tanda nak berenti. Ini pun boleh bikin stress lah. Dah lah the price (the tissue rolls) mahal nak mampus kat sini.  Average price for 8 rolls of tissues can come close to 5 pounds! Hmm.. what a price for disposing some hingus huh? Don't ask about the one that come in boxes. Tak berani nak jeling pon. Haha.

Have been by my lappy for about 4 hours now, but I still can't figure out what to cook today! You can pretty much say 'padan muka' to me sebab tak pandai masak. I had a dream about something that goes on for sooo longggg...but all I have in my mind is the hot ayam masak lemak cili padi in some canteen - of somewhere - some place - with people I don't remember! Goodness! That is all I remember??The ayam??

Better work out something, Intan. You are so close to pathethic-ish!

xx  DreamSnugger  xx

Some history for bedtime stories, anyone?

Okey. Old,old England History - toured within 2 hours. Dah habes tengok 'The Other Boleyn Girl' - with Natalie Portman ngan Scarlet Johansson as stars. Memang a bit terpengaruh ngan homework. I was writing about Hampton Court Palace and its historic evolution, came across cerita pasal King Henry VIII's wives (which most of them committed adultery) - then kena beheaded. Gilalah. Pancung straight! But it was a good movie. Not to say 'sangat best' but good enough to learn 'bout the history. Come on, letak Natalie Portman tuu.. and some hunks in the-16th centuries-English-attire! (George Boleyn, their brother, for instance) Hehe. King Henry VIII was played by Eric Bana.

Natalie played Ánne Boleyn - depicted 'the most influential queen in history of England' - all because of her capability to make the king annuled his marriage - and became the queen. Came across Thomas Wolsey in the movie - the king's favourite minister who built the palace as his house, but then kena balas ngan king (he's one of the main figure in my essay though, but the palace-landscape stuff takde ye dalam movie ni). Back to cerita Anne Boleyn - she was so overly-confident that she can bear the king a son (heir); which at the end, she failed. She gave birth to a baby girl (Queen Elizabeth I), got pregnant again - but then suffered miscarriages. Sickly and desperately, had asked for George Boleyn (his brother!) favour to get her pregnant again. But he couldn't. Well that was what delivered in the movie. Both Anne and George were beheaded. Sian George! hahahah..

                                                          Anne and Mary

                                                                 Anne and George (see!) 

                                                              Eric Bana played the king 

The palace was definitely not the Hampton Court Palace. Lacock Abbey was one of the place where they filmed the movie. And we've been there! How come we didn't know??

Hmm. Wonder why they didn't make history as fascinating as these before..? I mean, masa time sekolah2 dulu. I can remember names now, can you believe it!?

Intann : Beheaded scenes? Of course I was not looking -nightmares nanti. Hehehe.

xx  DreamSnugger  xx